Showing posts with label motherhood. Show all posts
Showing posts with label motherhood. Show all posts

23 August 2014

Henry:: 6 months

Apparently it takes me nearly a month to write these things, as Henry is almost 7 months old now.

I can't believe all the things he is doing! He has been crawling since about 5.5 months and can totally get across the room now...quickly too!

About a week ago, he started pulling up on things. It's pretty darn cute when he gives a big toothless grin and giggles about how proud he is.

He is doing things so much sooner than Amelia! It's amazing. He is totally going to be getting into everything soon...

Amelia just loves him. Still!
All day our house is filled with, "Come on Henry!" "Look Henry!"
But there's lots of "No Henry!"s too!
 

Henry is so much fun! He's social and loves to smile and be held. Since around 5 months old, when he started sitting up, he's gotten better at playing independently. Everything goes in his mouth now too.

About a week ago he started saying, DA DA DA DA and talking a lot more. It's pretty precious.

He's eating solids now and doing pretty well with them.

At the 6 month appointment he was in the 94% for height (again, he's tall!!) and 9% for weight. Definitively still tall and skinny! :)

Sleep on the other hand.....it's just terrible. Terrible. No, actually it's getting a lot better. The past 2.5 months have been really rough. We've had to do quite a bit of sleep training. It seems like every time we get in the swing of things, we go on a trip or find some way to mess up his sleep schedule. We now put Henry in Amelia's room at night, and I think this is for the best to help him sleep better at night.

I've had the best time on maternity leave and hanging out with my babies this summer. I'm getting really sad about having to leave him to go back to work. But I'm blessed that I at least got to stay home for 7 months.

 

28 April 2014

Blessed momma moments

Look at this sassssssss!!

This was exactly 5 minutes after she threw a total tantrum and 5 minutes before she threw another tantrum.

In my frustration at her terrible-two'ness that was shining through, I dumped her in to Henry's crib to chill out.

It was right here in this moment that I nearly cried. Not because she was being difficult and obstinate, but because I have two adorable babies. And they are babies. They rely on me. They are precious. And smart.

And I just felt happy.

Oh, I'm a happy person, so I wasn't lacking in happiness previously. It was just one of those eye-opening, holy cow I'm a blessed momma moments.

These kiddos grow like weeds. And this is the best time of my life. Right, there in that moment....was the best time of my life. And it was amazing realizing it. In an instant, sandwiched between a tantrum over who-knows-what and an attempt to brush the little dudes non-existent teeth. Best moment of my life.

And I've had some pretty cool moments in my life. You know the typical cool stuff, like getting married, graduating college, pushing a baby out drug free...and even some random others like traveling to Morroco or coaching my track girls to the state meet.

But....nothing trumphs the everyday awesome moments of motherhood.

Even if they are squeezed in between tantrums, poopy diapers and thrown spaghetti.

I'm a blessed momma.

 

18 April 2014

Henry:: 2 months

Look at this guy!

He's getting so big!
He's probably closer to 3 months old now...but at his 2 month appointment he was nearly 12lbs and around 23 inches. Skinny and long. Although he has the cutest round chubby face, doesn't he?
The past few weeks he's gotten really good at smiling and laughing. It's pretty precious when he kicks his little legs and grins in excitement. He's such a happy little guy.
He comes to track practice with me when the weather is nice and has even toughed it out for two track meets so far. He doesn't complain and is wrapped up snug in the boba wrap!
He likes to eat every 2.5-3hr and usually wants to eat twice at night. Every now and then he will give me a glorious stretch of sleep and only wake up once. It's magnificent! Other nights, like last night, he'll wake up 3 times. Those nights suck...a lot, as they usually follow a couple nights of 1x feedings.

I feel as though Henry has always been here. His face is so familiar to me...I feel as though I've known him forever. I'm not sure if it's because I'm remembering holding baby Amelia or what...but I just feel as though I've always known Henry. It's a good comforting feeling for a momma to have. Round 2 of motherhood is treating us well. He's hunger/sleep signs are easy to read and we spend a bunch of time just cuddling up on the couch. He loves to be held -- much more than Amelia did. Which I don't mind at all, but it's kinda hard to do as I'm chasing around an almost 2 year old all day.

So there it is. My Henny Roo Roo (isn't that a ridiculously sweet nickname? He's gonna love it when he's 16).

 

07 March 2014

Henry: 1 month

1 month

We have been blessed with such good babies.

He sleeps, he eats, he poops.

It's been great.

Honestly, it took him a little while to get good at nursing, well moreso latching on correctly. Actually, I think he probably picked it up just as normally as any other baby, I think it's just that Amelia had a really great latch from the get go, so I was expecting that.

But the boy is cute, and so content and happy all the time!

He really loves to be held.

I think I've figured out his sleep/eat/play (repeat) routine and what keeps him calm and happy. I have started to just let him sleep long stretches at night, whereas before I was waking him up every 3-4 hrs at night or he would wake up on his own. He's given me some 4-6 hr stretches lately and I love him for that! I was starting to feel a little sleep deprived and after just 2 nights of decent sleep, I'm feeling refreshed.

Even though he is still a tiny newborn, I can totally tell how much he is growing already!

Well, I already wrote about how our little family of four is doing....now I just can't wait for this little boy to grow and show us his personality. I'm starting to get a few smiles here and there. It's truly a wonderful thing seeing my children grow and learn. While it's hard to know that they will never be this tiny again, I've come to accept that the growth and learning is far more exciting. Now that we've seen Amelia become such a cool toddler, we are even more excited to get to know Henry and see who he will become.

 

27 February 2014

Family of four

 

The past few weeks have been a crazy stir of emotions as we adjust to being a family of four.

I have lots to say, and I promised I would be a better blogger once I had all this free time on maternity leave. But I simultaneously have a bazillion free hours and absolutely no time to do anything.

It's weird.

Speaking of weird, check out Amelia's awesome outfit. Hoodie (I made it!), diaper and Mary Janes. Awesome.

She is quite the silly girl these days.
Most days we start off just hanging out in bed. For soooooo long. It's wonderful. Until I start to feel mommy guilt for laying in bed while my toddler watched the 10th episode of Curious George on my iPad. Oops. But the cuddles are soooo good. And my bed is comfy too.

We are getting some sleep around here. Kinda. I'm ok with waking up to nurse Henry a few times until about 5am, and then I just get cranky and want to sleep and I start to get all dilerious and can't remember if I fed him, what time I fed him, where is he!?, or who I am...ya know, dilerious. It's great fun.

The hardest part of all this... is the mommy guilt for not going out and being active enough with Amelia. I try not to sit around and just hold Henry all day, but it's freaking hard to do much around here. There has been literally like two days in February where it didn't rain (really, I'm not lying) and we took full advantage! We soaked up that sun, even though it was barely 50 degrees and still freezing. We went to the park one day and Amelia dominated the slides. Another day I went for a long walk with a friend and her kiddos.

All in all, we are settling in well. It helps that Dan is the most amazing husband ever. He cleans the house, does fun projects with Amelia, makes me meals, etc. I am too blessed. And he does this all while juggling graduate school and the ubiquitous world of fine art. Someone needs to just smack me next time I give him crap about whatever the heck I give him crap about. He seriously is the best man on the planet.

I also think Amelia is adjusting well to Henry. She seems to truly love him and gives him kisses ALL DAY LONG. Sometimes we have to tell her to stop giving him kisses. And she says his name in the cutest sweetest way. Whenever we come into a room she asks where he is, she likes to forcefully give him his pacifier, rock him in his bouncer, asks me to lay him down or pick him up, notices when he cries and will give him random toys. Is this going to last, because it's precious? She's also become very fond of milk these days...it's pretty funny. She has to have her own milk whenever he's eating. Haha!
So I leave with this....
On some days...

....not even chocolate pudding can make things better....

But!

Most of our days are truly like this:

Blissful.

Peaceful.

And sweet.

 

 

09 February 2014

Henry Luke Harris

Henry Luke Harris
January 31, 2014
11:31am
7lbs 11oz, 19in

We love this little guy so much!

Little Henry's birth was amazing! The exact opposite of Amelia's birth. Not that hers wasn't amazing-- it was!, but just completely different. Amelia took around 27 hours to arrive and Henry it was about 8...such a difference!
The wonderful thing about his birth was that I was able to spend most of it at home. I walked around for at least 2 weeks already 3 cm dilated, so I knew that this birth experience would be a little different. Henry was born at 38weeks and 3 days so I was also getting very anxious to meet him, as Amelia was born at 37weeks and 1 day. It's weird to think that it isn't even my due date yet...but I don't mind my babies arriving early, as long as they are healthy!
The night before his birth we had Chinese food with Dans parents and due to my gestational diabetes I spent a good hour afterwards walking up the stairs and doing lunges and squats while folding laundry to try and keep my blood sugar low. But as I went to bed, I felt no impending labor.
However, I did wake up a few times feeling a little crampy, but it didn't feel abnormal until about 3:30am. So maybe Henry's labor was a little longer, but I didn't really feel it! At 3:30, I had some pretty strong contractions and a bit of bloody show, so I started to get excited. But I knew that this could only be a sign of labor coming in the next few days. I tried to sleep, but I was mostly too excited. By 5am, I noticed my contractions were strong and about 10mins apart, so I decided to take a shower. I must have taken a really hot shower, because I ended up scaring Dan as I woke him up telling him I felt dizzy. I had meant to let him sleep a little longer, oops! I tried to rest a bit more, but by 6:30, I was getting anxious and a bit more uncomfortable so I went downstairs to eat some breakfast. I think it was at this point that I realized that things were finally happening.
I actually really enjoyed having a few quiet moments downstairs, eating oatmeal and an apple, timing my contractions, teaching myself to breathe through the hardest parts and emailing my school/sub. I had already planned to be gone from school that morning due to a doc appointment, so it was very convenient that Henry decided to show up when he did!
By 7:30/8, I had cancelled my doc appointment, called L&D to let them know what was going on and texted Marianne and Scott to come over and watch Amelia. My contractions were about 6-7minutes apart. At this point, Dan and Amelia were awake. It was interesting trying to concentrate through contractions with Amelia...she just laughed and smiled at me. I was also getting quite concerned because I had pretty bad back labor (again!), so I was trying all sorts of swaying to try and get him to move. Every now and then Dan had to apply some counter pressure to my low back. I remember that my contractions hurt, in fact they hurt just as bad as my first labor with Amelia when I gave in to the epidural, but this time was completely different because I wasn't exhausted and 24hrs into it. Surprisingly, it gave me reassurance knowing that the pain would only last for a minute and that I was getting closer to meeting the little dude. I'm pretty proud of how I handled the pain at home, especially for how dilated I ended up being before I made it to the hospital (spoiler: 9cm and feeling ready to push!)
 

Anyways... (man....birth stories are so long.....I just want to be able to remember everything.....) by the time Marianne and Scott arrived, 8:30?, I was definitely feeling more uncomfortable and needed a quiet place to concentrate, so I went upstairs to sway. Dan was with me to comfort me and apply counter pressure to my back, but he was also trying to get everything ready to leave and make sure his school business was in order. I didn't really mind because I enjoyed being alone to concentrate. Although, at this point I was also starting to get nervous about how close my contractions were getting. I was getting closer and closer to the 4-5mins apart that necessitated going to L&D. After laying down for awhile (which ironically, I think allowed Henry to flip around a bit), I started to feel a little flushed and just not well, so I finally told Dan it was time to go!

I think we headed out the door at 10am. I just remember trying to say bye to Amelia but having a contraction and walking into the bathroom to lean on the wall. I was definitely starting to not feel well at this point. Getting in the car and having contractions while sitting was absolutely terrible. I must have had 3-4 back to back contractions. Ugh! Dan drove fast, but well. I just remember thinking, I better be ready to deliver this kid when we get there, because if I have 10 more hours of this pain or it gets worse....I'm done. Dan quickly dropped me off and I waited for him to park. It was here that I suddenly realized that I was probably in transition... I felt faint, weak and was starting to shake a bit. And oh.....why does Kaiser have such a long hallway?!? It's terrible. I had to stop like 3 times, all the while Dan kept offering to get a wheelchair but I didn't want to wait or for him to leave me, I just needed to get there! By the time we made it down the hall and he phoned for them to open the doors, I had to squat down or I wasn't going to make it. I also very surprisingly felt the need to push! This was a scary but awesome feeling because I knew I was almost done! Hahahaha! Little did I know that the worst pain was ahead of me....

The nurse that opened the door looked at me skeptically, like every women that arrives claims to be ready to push, but agreed to let me use a wheelchair to go into triage. Everyone did work quickly though and we found out I was 9cm and my water was about to burst, so I was swiftly moved into a room. Yay! I was so happy that I was this far along, but I totally couldn't express it, as at this point I had to just close my eyes and block everything out. I got asked a billion questions, and I dont think I answered that many of them. The midwife did ask if she should break my water and I agreed as it would speed things up...yes, please! Although I wasn't quite 10cm, I felt a huge urge to push, so the midwife said I could, that I should do whatever felt best or most comfortable. So I started to push and it just felt awkward at first. Eventually, they got out the squat bar and I had more success with that....which was great, but oh so bad it hurt! They thankfully gave up on trying to keep the monitors on, but honestly, I hardly noticed as I was trying so hard to concentrate. It took my whole body strength to effectively push. While I was happy that I was did this drug free, I was simultaneously cursing myself for not getting an epidural. This was easily the hardest thing I have ever done, physically, mentally, emotionally, it was hard! I also vividly remember thinking, I will NEVER do this again...HAHA! But despite all this talk of pain, I already have forgotten some of it (some...).

After just about 45 minutes, the little dude finally made it out! He was placed on my tummy, well more like my hips, as he ended up having a super short umbilical cord. I just remember the midwife saying, oh! shortie cord, he's got a shortie cord!

Right away Dan and I realized how perfectly beautiful he was. I felt so much relief that he was here and healthy. I'm not a crier during birth, but I nearly cried, I was so happy. He had the perfect little face and he happily got to cuddle and nurse with me for the next two hours. I'm really thankful that Kaiser allows those first few hours for us. There is nothing like looking down at a brand new babe resting on your chest.

My midwife and nurses were calm, encouraging and wonderful. I felt totally safe. They were great at communicating with us and my midwife even said that this would have been a fantastic home birth. She included Dan in letting him know about what we should expect for my recovery and I knew he appreciated bring included. Sometimes I feel like the dad gets forgotten, so that was nice.

Man....I feel so blessed to have this sweet boy as part of our family.

And that Amelia loves him too!

She really does. She says "baby!" every time she sees him, gives him kisses and then points out all of his features. It's precious.

We are all smiles over here, ridiculously grinning at our beautiful little family.

 

06 November 2013

Fruit cocktail

 

Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing things right. Amelia always makes it so easy.

But there are definitely those moments where I just wonder if we are really messing things up.

Like when all I can think of for dinner is left over mashed potatoes and canned fruit cocktail. I mean...I meant to only give her a little bit of that sugary fruit, while I tried to think of something else a bit healthier. But then she kept saying "MOOORE" and pointing at the container. I tried to tell her that she just couldn't have canned fruit for dinner. And ya know...she did eat a lot of those mashed potatoes (I mean, it is a vegetable, right?)....and well, I just couldn't think of anything else clever to give her.

So we ate the whole can.

Together. Mostly.

We redeemed ourselves a little as we ended up rounding it out with some string cheese, half of which ended up being flung on the floor to the dog. Oh, and we added in some Toasted Os cereal for good measure. Half of which, also ended up on the floor for the dog.

Oh well.

At least the night ended well, with me rocking her and singing her to sleep.

She sang along to the entire 4 songs I sang her, meanwhile sneaking in wet kisses and feeling my teeth.

It was gloriously wonderful.

So I feel a little better now about the fruit cocktail for dinner (who bought that stuff anyways?)

 

30 October 2013

Baby babe

It's been mostly by accident that I haven't put anything on my blog about little baby boy on the way. Mostly exhaustion. But I don't want little Henry to feel left out that he didn't get a proper blog post announcing his entrance into my belly and a record of his mamas ever increasing gain in weight. You know, because babies care about that sort of thing, right?!

 

It all began a little something like this. Dan and I had always said that after Amelia's 1st birthday we would start talking about adding on to our family. So one evening shortly thereafter Dan (yeah, HE brought it up, not me!!!) very casually mentions we should start thinking about another baby and I agree that that's probably a good idea and we should talk about it some point soon. And bam -- 2-3 weeks later little Henry is on his way. We found out in early June, but didn't tell a lot of people until late summer.

 

Obviously, we are thrilled! And to be having a boy! Honestly at first I was super nervous. I've always thought parents were ridiculous for thinking that they weren't sure if they could love another kid as much of their first. But I totally get it now. We are so consumed with Amelia and all her wonderfulness, that I was a little hesitant to add another little one in to our little perfect family. But now that Henry's been growing for almost 6 months, I am completely in love with him too. And I know it'll be just perfect when he's born in February.

 

Being pregnant the second time around it much easier in some ways. Mostly because I know what to expect and it's not as nerve wracking. But this time I am definitely more exhausted just because I can't nap whenever I want and I am constantly chasing Amelia around or picking her up. That is hard.

 

My belly is also MUCH bigger.

This is at Week 27 the 1st time.

And below is this time around at 23-25 weeks. They aren't great pictures, but if you saw me in person I'm definitely bigger. Fun.

So there we are.

Henry and I.

I truly can't wait to meet him. Dan too. Do you think he will have hair? I don't care. Cuddling a sweet baby is the best thing in the world. I could have 10,000 of them. And I hope he's sweet too. I mean, what if he's not, we can't just throw him back, right? We are expecting a little terror though since Amelia was such an angel. I mean, seriously she was the best newborn. Parenting was so easy. I'm almost sure we are overdue for a screaming infant that cries all night.

Random other pregnancy things:

  • I felt him moving/kicking super early like with Amelia. I swear I felt flutters around 13-14 weeks and definitely by 15-16 weeks. Now, I get quick swift jabs and kicks. Mostly in the afternoon/evening/all night long. I'm going to go ahead and predict that he will be an night owl.
  • Jack in the box tacos. Enough said.
  • No linea negra this time. Weird. Or an itchy belly (thank you, thank you!)
  • Lots of tailbone/back pain. Oh joy!
  • I haven't been plagued with it recently, but I had pretty bad insomnia for awhile.
  • I don't think I threw up, not even once. But I did get nauseous A LOT, especially if I was the tiniest bit hungry, which of course was constantly.
  • And...he is definitely a boy

 

15 June 2013

So so much more wonderful

I swear I've waited my whole life for this picture.

I've spent most of my days on earth waiting. Just waiting for things. Waiting for the future.

Now?

I just want it to slow the heck down.

.....

A few weeks ago, I was reminiscing about how wonderful it was to hold a sweet tiny baby girl in my arms and how much I miss holding her.

But now these days-- I've got something that competes with those beautiful little moments.

The happy little awkward open mouth kisses (hundreds of them!) and the sweet moments where she chooses to come over to me giggling and smiling. You know...the thumb-sucking, let-me-lay-my-head-down softly on your knee and then give your knee little kisses moments...those. Those are just soo soo much more wonderful.

And I'm very happy about that.

.....

 

12 May 2013

Mothers Day 2013

Dan made these!

I'm blessed to have celebrated my second Mother's Day today. What an awesome day it was. And nothing special happened. Just a gloriously normal Sunday family day.

Mia woke up with a big smile this morning and kept us busy chasing her all day.

Dan made this beauty in the wee hours of the morning and sent it my way. [He's cute]

What a happy girl she is. Always smiling and laughing.

I feel so lucky to have her as my daughter.

Its indescribable, the happiness I felt tonight as we were all eating dinner together and having a mini dance party. Or how she giggled endlessly as I talked on the phone (a funny little habit she's started) and wished my nana a happy mothers day and then contently cuddled in my arms for a solid 15 minutes (that never happens anymore!). I feel like that is what life and family is all about. Happy little dance parties and cuddles before bedtime.